In prison with myself

 

"O dream of peace, go on and on.

Disturb thou not my slumber kind.

I dread to see the coming dawn

When all alone myself I find."

NTG

 

When was the last time you've had a dream? 

No! Not just any dream...not flying off and

 starting from scratch, not getting your dream

 job, not a brand new car;

 a REAL one.

Little reflection:

Last time I wished I knew myself a little bit

 more, so confused and lost, mad at me... 

Didn't even know what kind of chocolate or 

snack I liked, had no idea what I wanted to be

 in life, what I accepted what I did not.

Mysterious chaotic soul

Confused about my own self, 

Tried to understand "Me".

Thought it was easy, 

just another missing file in my brain... I'll figure it out, someday.

Didn't know that it takes to feel like a total nobody, confused, blurry... at first.

The blurry road gave me no option but to focus on what's now, on the present. 

Couldn't see what's in front of me, what's waiting for me.

Only had inside to look at.

This path threw me in prison with my own self, and honestly, 

I'm glad it did.

Sometimes all you need is to stop, 

but you won't until life forces you to stop and focus on that "dream".

A real one, nothing material, self-acknowledgment maybe.

What's next? 

Well, I'd be lying if I told you I know.

Sure about one thing, 

you will rock it.

Wherever you go, whatever it is;

You will rock it, 

and if it fails... 

You'll repeat the cycle, 

learn,

 fix the mistakes,

 come back, 

and rock it.

It's never a bad idea to be a prisoner of yourself,

 only if you know how to handle it. 

Don't let it bring you down with all the insecurities and fears.

Get in there and kick some ass.